21 Dec
Haiz.. today is a bad day to began with.. Being award an extra duty for taking my watches along to strength training lol.. haiz.. think army is lidat de.. stupid ppl setting stupid standard.. end up their follower will eventually suffer.. After RO, went to cook maggie.. suddenly 933 is playing the song "last christmas".. ahh it remind me of my short relationship with rachel.. though she is kidda sweet girl and a nice gf to go along with.. but I knew we wun be an item coz I am sumone who cannot stand gf going clubbing so frequently.. anyway think i wun be hurting her that much.. coz we end e relationship very fast.. hmmm hope she didn't get the wrong idea when she saw me dancing with stella and shenice.. haiz.. they are kenny friend lo.. so zhun.. kenny went to toilet.. i just accompany them awhile.. den she happen to witness it lol.. ahh still can remember how ugly is it when she is staring so angrily at stella.. lol.. budden i didn't explain anything to her coz initially we broke up le.. and I just wan her to really gib up hope on me haha.. even untill today she is still so angry with me.. think e last time i saw her was at zouk.. she just simply stare at me and walk away haiz... but at least I know if we still hold on longer.. ahh dunno how to say.. e reason behind is b.coz there still someone in my heart.. plus she's quite a nice girl which i dun wan to hurt =)
hmmm tonight both alecia and si mei both send me e same gd nite msg lol.. plus another very meaningful msg from cindy.. it say sumthing like
" e star u can't reach, is the brightest
e fish u lost, is e cutest
e movie u miss, is e best show
e lover u lost, is someone u love most
"
hmmm some of it is quite true lol.. argh.. gotta go slp le tml still got SOC test...
20 Dec 2005
Today is our second day of watermanship exercise.. the water isn't as dirty as described by our PC.. it is consider an easy day since there isn't much activities going on.. back to company line, I am actually quite delighted coz we have been given night snack lol.. perhaps that one of the reason why I am gaining weight in army lol.. and my 7 hours of sleep kekeke. Had to wash alot of stuff b4 I could finally get to rest.. but prior to that.. my buddy Ricky was here chatting with me even when my eye is closing lol.. anyway I knew that in life, there are I wanna accomplish yet so little time given.. On top of that, I still enjoy slacking at home esp during book out.. But soon enough, I will surely come out with my future plans coz I know that time isn't going to wait for me wahaha .. Hopefully I could keep myself busy planning to replace my clubbing activities tat is suppose to keep myself occupied to ease my pain thinking of my last relationship..(",)
19 Dec 2005
Tonight is an usual night.. For I suddenly realize that e sky are filled with stars that are simply breathtaking.. It's something I would never notice b4.. Seeing that makes me remember grannie which she used to be my "stars" in e past.. Though some memories of hers are slowly fading.. she will never be forgotten.... At e same time, star also reminded me of bin bing.. how we eventually patch back after being thru so much, all e wonderful time we had together, how I celebrated her bdae with her, playing with Micky and so much more.. However all these past are double edged sword.. they can bring me smile.. as well as tears.. How I wish I could overcome it.. neverlessly... it keep haunting me everynight.. perhaps that one of the reason why I hate staying at home esp at night everytime when I book out.. Haiz.... what a cold & lonely night it is..
