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Its been ages since I last update my Blog... Luckly my userId and Pwd are still remembered haha..
Recently, alot of problem concerning about $$$ is occuring to me..
For some reasons, friends of mine, relative.. all turning to me for $$$
Do you know, its really hard to reject someone especially when he/she is really in needs..
be it they require to pay off their soccer betting debt.. school fees... living expenses.. I mean you
name it.. they got it.. all sort of reasons in life..
Sometimes.. When my brain decision was to be firm and say NO.. My heart prefer otherwise..
Always putting myself in a dilemma... It's just a simple YES or NO
It is so hard?
Why do I have to face such hash reality...
I mean why can't they maintain their own finance well?
I save because I wanted to achieve my own plan and goal..
Not to help people dilute their debt.. ESP Soccer debt.. which personally
I detest the most..
All they could do is STOP USING FUTURE MONEY...
Don't keep thinking oh my pay is coming.. because your pay is for your
foreseeable future expenses...
It is not my fault that you overspend.. Don't come to me with teary eye...
It's my weakness.. Don't take my compassion for my weakness.. Try to
take advantage of me.. haha.. my advise to you is don't ever try..
Moreover, the amount they ask is increasing.. I am tired.. really tired of
entertaining such request.. even my nephew (being advise by my mother) is asking
me for his monthly pocket money... Cool isn't it.. being sort of sold by someone who
gave birth to you...
Isn't that the responsibility of my brother, who is his father, should do?
Why his father can use his hard earn money to gamble, going ktv while me
having to support for his son and daughter instead?
Although it's arguable that me as their uncle should help.. I mean of course I will
If it is reasonable for me.. For Example, his father contribute $200 and still short of $100,
For sure, I will fork out this deficit for them. Don't expect me to pay 100% for everything..
Damn it.. Considering I am supporting myself for my own school fees and living expenses,
I am still required to help this help that...
Another Irony incident is, Almost all the borrower are earning more than me haha...
Why Why Why??
Sigh.. Sometimes when you think of it.. It's easier to reject friends than relative.. Especially when
my mother is putting her pressure on me.. Moreover, I dun like to disclose such Issue to friends... Even close friend...
Perhaps.. Disclosing online is an alternative for me to destress..
The most memorable money lending incident is when my mother, as usual applying her pressure to me when my exams is just around the corner..
Imagine when I am studying, she keep nagging.... What will you feel if you were on my shoes?
To be frank, working and studying is already stressful enough for me...
I am already tired.. tired....
May tomorrow be a better day...
Maybe...
26 Sep 2007
You Are Tagged! Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!
1) I dislike hanging out in crowded places: Exception is clubbing
2) I love curry peng
3) prefer to study in the night
4) love to rush at the last min..
5) hate to be left alone
6) I sleep less than 6 hours a day
7) I am partial colour bind
8) I will feel giddy upon having coffee
9) would love to setup a biz of my own
10) the number of hours staring at computer screen is more than my sleeping time
the suay ppl I tag: Meiling, Jasmine, Si Mei, Kim leng(If he ever knew about my blog), donald and robin
Feeling Of ORDing
Times really flies.. thinking back the days b4 my enlistment.. the darken days after she left me, and of course the sadden period when I saw her on my enlistment day sending her fren instead of me.. not to forget all the golden memories that I had during my NS days whereby I made some really great frens and brothers.. How I transform from a civilian to a soldier and back to civilian again.. All the stupid but unforgetable things we did in the field camp and etc..
Today is the day whereby I will receive my pink IC back again.. Although ppl might be saying.. how wonderful it is to receive back ur IC again.. But I think otherwise.. neither am I 100% happy nor 100% sad.. come to think about it.. it's just another phase in life that everyone had to go through and it is my turn now.. Anyway I am really content with what my life is for now.. really learning to treasure what I had now.. Haiz tml is my interview with panasonic.. hopefully I wun be going thru that panel interview.. Really feeling very excited now haha..
Bad Year 2007
It's been such a bad year for me esp for 2007.. too much stuff happen le.. esp with xiaoli.. but den it's a good experience for me.. not to give away my trust so easily to others anymore..
No matters what happen.. I will always stay strong and happy de even if she isn't around my side anymore.. Just dun like the way she keep saying sorry to me.. I kidda feel that I am being cheated or whatsoever.. I mean how can u keep changing your mind.. saying yes for a moment and suddenly regret ur decision for more than once.. If only sorry can cure everything..
My mind had never been so clear b4.. my heart has gonna experience the pain once again.. my trust has been broken twice again and lastly what I want to say is that "Dun say thank you if you dun meant it.. dun say sorry if you dun meant it"
ACCA Registration
Today, I finally went to register for the ACCA course. Thinking about to 2004 June, that was when I have completed CAT course, although I could have started studying for ACCA by then, but there was this native thinking of me wanting to spend more time with her, that result in today slow progression. All I receive from my committment was disappointment and loneliness. Registeration was easy as I just need to go down to FTC to sign up as their student etc.. Only the registeration for the student membership is more tedious as I need to submit all my cert including GCE 'O' Level.. and of course, alot of hidden cost.. which is in term of pounds. But since I decided to study, the cost element/factor shouldn't be my considering factor. At least this was what I felt at that moment. At least, my family could lead a better life after I became a CPA in future.
27 Nov 2006
The time now is 423am in the morning of 27 Nov 2006.. I just can't get to sleep.. coz images of her keep poping up on my mind.. Why can't just let me sleep peacefully without having to recall about her.. arg!!!... Memories of us spending the night chatting at the playground nearby her place just days before we last patch back.. And how sweet she was when I first know her.. recall 'them' do brings me sweet feeling of the past.. but also the heartache.. It's not something that could be describe with words.. Is it true that all good thing muz come to an end?
One more month b4 the starting of my ACCA classes.. hopefully I could make use of studying to forget her instead of clubbing.. Like the saying that goes 'Time will heal all wounds'.. is it true? but how come it don't seem to be happening to me? Perhaps I am tired le.. really tired..
26 Nov 2006
Today was a busy day for me.. woke up feeling so confuse.. but eventually I still make my way down to MOS to support Roy for his DJ competition.. and the most funny thing that happen was when the ppl tired to take photo of us.. all of us simply had this instinct to siam lol.. After the private function, despite numerous invitation to club tonight, I decided to go home.. espically after last night thingy, I really dun wan to indulge myself into clubbing.. But what really stop me from going clubbing was I need to be alone to think over some matters.. So Instead of taking train which is suppose to be the fastest way back home, I choose to take bus 80 back.. at least I could have some private time thinking over it.. Haiz.. 11/2 yr is such a long time.. but yet still not long enuff to forget someone u really love b4.. Even till now when I am writing this.. my mind is still very confuse.. I knew I had to moved on coz there isn't any hope of getting back together as we didn't even contact since the day we broke off.. but writing is easier den doing.. like what jazjaz told me.. ppl in love is so stuipd haa.. Ahh sometime I wish.. I could just forget everything but I can't
Now I am just like a dead man walking thru this cruel world.. good nite
